Saturday, March 10, 2007

His Love is Greater

Thursday night the engine light popped on. Anxious thoughts flitted across my mind as to what it could be. Of course, I went with the worst possible scenarios. I bought my car one year ago this month. Prior to that, we replaced 4 transmissions in one year.

Earlier that day I asked God how I could trust Him that He wouldn't let certain things happen again? He whispered, "My LOVE is greater than your fear."

The next morning I sat in the repair shop waiting for the bad news. I took my laptop and worked on my manuscript for two hours. Then Kenneth Copeland came on TV. The topic was "Perfect love casts out fear." I listened and absorbed.

My husband picked me up for lunch and he had heard a message on the radio. This is what he shared: Fear is not knowing the outcome. Faith is not knowing the outcome. In this way fear and faith are similar. We have to choose to believe in one or the other. One is of God and the other is of Satan. Fear requires more energy, is very draining, and causes worry and stress. Faith requires less energy, builds hope, relieves worry and stress. Which one makes more sense? Wow! This ministered to me so much.

What does this have to do with writing? God is leading me to delve deep into my past experiences to create stories that may speak to others, letting them know they aren't alone, and perhaps help them begin the process of healing. I have feared mentally going back and facing those dark places in my life (the valleys).

The characters in my WIP bring back memories. I know what they're feeling as they pray for their daughter's life, and they walk the hospital halls, waiting patiently for news. They go through sleepless nights and weary days seeking and searching for answers. They fear a parent's worst nightmare.

I feel as if this book is creating itself and pouring the pages into the computer and I am just there as the gatekeeper. All I have to do is wrap myself in God's love and open the gate. Rivers of healing water pour through.

Before reading the verses below remember these analogies. Jesus told Peter they would be fishers of men. With the woman at the well, Jesus offers her water that she may never thirst again. God is the tree of life. He plants a new tree every time He saves a new soul, cleansing us with the blood of Jesus and making us the new temple where He dwells and the river flows.

"This water flows toward the eastern region, goes down into the valley, and enters the sea. When it reaches the sea, its waters are healed. And it shall be that every living thing that moves, wherever the rivers go, will live. There will be a very great multitude of fish, because these waters go there; for they will be healed, and everything will live wherever the river goes." Ezekiel 47:8 NKJV

"Along the bank of the river, on this side and that, will grow all kinds of trees used for food; their leaves will not wither, and their fruit will not fail. They will bear fruit every month, because their water flows from the sanctuary. Their fruit will be for food, and their leaves for medicine." Ezekiel 47:12 NKJV

5 comments:

  1. You can do it, Jenn. Don't let fear keep you from the story.

    I've decided a story isn't emotional enough unless I cry while writing it. :) Of course, I guess the true test will be whether or not a reader gets involved in the characters enough to cry.

    You're story will be great!

    Missy

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  2. I love the analogy between faith and fear. Satan will use anything he can to get his claws into us. I hate that so often he uses things of God to do that.

    Don't be afraid to go there, Jenn. Remember, you're not going alone.

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  3. Jenn,
    This book sounds like it's you. You have so much to bring to a story. I'm excited for you and keep going.

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  4. I'm glad you have come to this place. It's a broken place where Christ can work through you. Embrace it. You are supposed to be there.
    Angie

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  5. Jenn,

    God has been speaking to me about His love and my fear lately. Your post spoke to me.

    I agree - write that novel and let God not only heal you, but those who read it. :)

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