Thursday, June 14, 2007

Fear

Okay, I admit it. I'm scared.

You know how I mentioned starting my book over again on my post last week? Well, I still haven't done it yet. And I think the reason is that I'm scared. I'm scared of failing. I'm scared this version won't work either.

I'm usually very excited about starting a new book. And I am excited. But every time I start to do the actual writing, I seem to find something else that I remember needs doing. (No, not the laundry, I'm not that desperate yet.)

Well, I'm telling you right now, so you can hold me to it, that I'm going to post this message and go right to my laptop to start writing. No excuses. When I check back in later tonight to look for comments, I'll be able to tell you how much I got written.

Okay, so I shared that I'm a chicken. What are you scared of? Failure? Success, even? What's holding you back from doing the work you know God wants you to do?

Missy

8 comments:

  1. Hey Missy,

    Thanks for stopping by my blog today. It's great to meet a fellow writer and teacher. I know what you mean about starting a new book. I'm in the process right now, and I find myself reworking the first three pages and not going any farther. My mind keeps telling me to grab the reader right away, but I think I'm overdoing it. Let us know how much you wrote today.

    Sandra Robbins

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  2. Missy, I've been dealing with a lot of fear in my writing, too. Many of the same reasons you stated--what if I do it wrong, etc. The best way for me to get a hande on it is to remember that it's the enemy who's instilling that fear in me. Do I want to let him win? Heck no.
    Find scriptures on fear and write them on notecards. Memorize them and use them as a shield against those flaming arrows he throws. We can do this, Missy. I know we can.

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  3. Missy,
    Good post. I know I get scared also. But I'm not sure of what I'm scared of. Failure, not being good enough, not having the talent.
    But I'm going to keep pluggin at it.
    Okay, how many words did you write?

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  4. I'm so glad you brought this out into the open. I'm afraid of not achieving my dreams. I am so driven that I get really intense. I worry that I won't get all the goals I have done. But, I'm praying for balance and steady steps in a forward motion. Then I fear making the wrong decision. So I understand. It's a fearful thing to pick the wrong plot element that an editor won't feel it's exciting enough or merit enough emotion.
    I'm really working hard on the plot this time so that I gain confidence:-) I guess my best piece of wisdom is to jump in and do. I used swimming to teach myself this. During high school, I swam in P.E. during the middle of winter. We only had 30 minutes. So I counted to 3 and jumped in no matter what. I still use that today.
    Angie

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  5. Fear is the work of Satan.

    I think I've been afraid of everything. It depends on what's going on and what's not going right in my life.

    I had to take a look at myself and ask how long I was going to let fear control me.

    I think I gave that fear to God long before I realized I had let it go. But when I realized I had given it to Him, it was like someone turned a light on in a large auditorium. And then I could see all of the doors standing open before me. All I had to do was choose one and walk through in Faith.

    So walk on, Missy. In Faith, not in Fear.

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  6. Thanks, ladies! And thanks for stopping by, Sandra. :)

    I did it! I started it! I was able to revive some of the old opening and make changes. Then I wrote 1100 new words! I'm having fun with it again, which is one of the most important things.

    I hope you can all get going as well.

    Missy

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  7. Missy, I found you through Belinda's blog. I just had to say hello. Since I am not a writer, I can't identify with the fear you feel but as someone who has read what you have written, I can say I don't think you have a reason to fear. I think you are very talented and I can't wait to read your book.
    I hope you are well. I haven't seen you in a long time. We had too leave conference early because Warren hurt his back!!
    Take care and I will be looking for your new book!

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  8. Hi, Jane! So glad you found our blog. :)

    Yes, I heard Warren was having back problems. I'm so sorry! I can relate. I've had to take a muscle relaxant today for spasms in my lower back. I hurt it 2 weeks ago and was doing better but somehow strained it again.

    I hope you'll visit us again! And I hope to see you soon.

    Missy

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