Friday, October 17, 2008

Crown of Excuses

Christy here:

You know how Missy blogged about being Queen of the Plan-to's... Well, I planned to post my blog. I planned to do it on Thursday night, but just didn't have the words. Then I planned to do it Friday morning, but I slept in and my daughter got up early. So.... I'm doing my blog post now... but folks, it isn't getting off to a great start.

I think I'll offer you up a new crown here this evening.... It's the crown of excuses. I have this crown. I wear it proudly most days. Some days I hide it, because I can't bear to hear my own excuses as to why I didn't accomplish this, or didn't accomplish that.

The one important thing I tend to put off is prayer. I avoid witnessing. These are two big things every Christian should be doing. I'm not proud of my confession. But I'm hoping that with admitting my fears, will come my plan to conquer them.

And this is plan-to I HAVE to achieve.

Prayer tends to get swept under the rug. If I don't do it in the morning, then I Plan TO do it mid day. Then it's pushed to night and first thing you know I'm in dreamland and a new day dawns. Prayer and devotions should be done first thing in the morning. Again at night. Can you imagine how much more you have to gain by starting your day and ending your day in God's word?

As far as witnessing to others about Christ I rarely do it. If something about religion is brought up in casual conversation, I will speak up. But I guess you could say I'm lukewarm about it. And that scares me, because scripture says God will spew those out who are lukewarm for him (Revelation 3:16).

If my issue with witnesses is because I'm afraid of not being accepted, then what will happen to me on the day of judgment when all of those opportunities to share Christ were wasted because I was afraid of another human and their thoughts? What of God? My driving fear should be Him seeing me as lukewarm.

I want to be embraced by God, not be indifferent.

He has pulled me out of the depths of confusion and despair so many times... has protected me from "close-calls" that came from my own stupid decisions... I have prayed for so many things and seen them come true. Let me share one...

The latest prayer I watched unfold was for my husband. He believes in God. He knows Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. But a couple of years ago, after our daughter was born, I realized I needed to change. I needed to get serious about God. It was as if I could sense His love for us when I looked at my newborn. She was precious and delicate and I loved everything about her. I realized God looked at me in that same way. If God loved me more than even I loved my child... why had I been running the other way for so long?

It took a while, but about a year later, I returned to church and haven't turned back. I wanted to go. I started going twice on Sundays and every Wednesday night. I'd never gone so much in my life. My husband was skeptical. He told me I would get tired of going. I replied confidently, "No I Won't."

My husband started going to church services occasionally, but never wanted to go to Sunday School with me. That was a major part of me. I wanted him to be a part of Bible Study. It was hard going in every morning and being one of few married women in attendance but the spouse was missing. I wasn't alone, but I didn't want to be that person. However, I went on. I kept praying for my husband's relationship with God, even though I really, and truly, didn't know what that was. I knew he was a believer, but I knew God knew his heart. I knew my husband's heart was for God. I continued to pray.

It has been a gradual process. I stopped going to Bible study on Sunday mornings because I started teaching a class! That also meant, I had to go to church. I had a responsibility that I needed to meet. Just in this last year, my husband started going to our Bible Study class on his own. And for someone who thought it was going to be an ooey-gooey time of sharing and pouring out your deepest, most heartwrenching thoughts, he's found its a time to be educated and fellowship. He goes with me on Wednesday nights, when he's not at work. He loves fishing, but will come in from fishing early enough to attend with me on those Wednesday's he's off. And the most poignant occurance that has happened is that he's looking for a new job. He's looking for many reasons, but one quality he's looking for is a schedule that will allow him to go to church every Sunday and every Wednesday.

What a blessing!

I prayed. Though they were scattered over time, they were from my heart. God was listening and working all through that time!

The least I can do for Him is spread his word... Share my testimony...So as I go out, every day, I will remember to "...not be afraid, for the Lord your God will be with you where ever you go." Joshua 1:9.

2 comments:

  1. Christy,
    Praise God for answered prayer. Your story is another amazing way God works in our lives.

    And your two weakest spots are mine, also. I must confess, too.
    I'm reading a devotional right now titled "Christ In the School of Prayer." It's by one of my fav's to read---Andrew Murray. This man has insight like I've never read before. And it's an eye-opening book. It talks about all aspects of prayer. I think we need to learn/do/learn do/learn more/do more....it's a process..one we're still being taught.
    Great post.

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  2. Great post, Christy! And thanks for sharing your story about prayer. I was going to post about anwered prayers for my son when he went off to college. But then I realized I should have his permission first. Maybe I'll do that later.

    Missy

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