Sunday, April 18, 2010

Keep Me Accountable - Week 4

I got up at 3:30 this morning and for the last hour, or more, my daughter's hermit crab has been out of his shell. I think he likes the quiet of the house. He probably feels freer to roam when it's dark and quiet. I imagine these crabbies do the same when they are on the beach.

I've been listening to him beat around in his small little cage and watching his body, which is quite huge to me, try to get back into his shell. I'm a little concerned that he doesn't have water... but that will have to wait. Yes,watering this crab will wait until he is back in his shell. You see, the animal is so huge, bigger than you'd think a crab would be that fits in a shell this size, that I'm scared of him. Well, not really scared, it's just, I don't want to get pinched.

But I admire the crab for his determination to get back into his shell so he can sleep and hide the rest of the day. The other side of this is I have to look at myself and wonder why I don't want to help this innocent crab out. Why do I let fear hold me back?

I've let fear hold me back a number of times. I think that is part of the reason it's taken me 6 years to come this far on this particular manuscript and not finish a hand full of other stories. It's going to take a lot of courage to mail the full manuscript off, knowing there is a huge chance it will be rejected, even after all the time and thought and lip service I've put into it. But that is a fear I will face and a chance I will take.

Current Word Count:  55,098

I'm moving forward with the story and am down to the last eight to ten scenes. I hope if you are working on something with me that you are making progress. I hope my journey and journal of my progress is helping. If you've been lurking, speak up, I'd love to know how you're doing.

So as we start a new week, keep 2 things in mind:

1 - Don't let fear hold you back.

2 - Don't give up.




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6 comments:

  1. Intriguing thoughts, Christy, and so true.

    You're almost there. I can't wait until you can type the end.

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  2. Wow. You're really plugging along, and I feel so freaked out that the month is almost over. But very excited that you'll be done!!! Yay!

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  3. Christy,

    I wonder what a survey would show if all of us were asked "how much does fear play into whether or not you write?" My name would be on the list, for sure!

    You are doing awesome! Keep up the great work!

    Edwina

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  4. You go, Twinkie! You're almost there.
    I totally get the fear thing. I'm right there with you. Sigh.

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  5. 55 098 words - for some lines you'd have met your word count!

    I am at the other end starting a new ms after having just submitted my first one.

    Good luck finishing the rest of this book!

    Determination and perseverance will see you through!

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  6. Whew! Sunday and Monday have been busy days... thanks for your comments, I always enjoy reading what others have to say.

    I think the best thing for us to do is to pray our way through the fear. God can do the impossible as I know you ladies already know. We just need to be reminded :)


    And Eva Marie, good luck on the feedback you get from your first submission! Let us know how you do. After this one is finally submitted, I know it will be several months to wait, but I will be posting the good or the bad result! It helps to be supported whatever the outcome.

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