Sunday, February 6, 2011

Walk out & Inhale

Christy here and I've been busy trying to figure out who I am and where I'm going.

It's easy to get bogged down in day to day responsibilities. I've tried to take a few moments of each day to just walk outside and inhale. Enjoy the day God has given me. I'm trying not to stress over work ... After all, it will be there when I come back the next day.

Lately, I've been looking around my house and I see the many things that need to be improved. Having lived in the home for 10 years, the newness has worn off and the decor we thought we liked when we moved in has changed.   I look at the clutter surrounding me and I ask myself what do I really need to keep? What can I give away?

I stand in my closet every day and realize my wardrobe consists of sensible shoes, t-shirts, turtlenecks and jeans. I'm stuck in "worn out working mom -mode" and though I love my jeans, I know there's more to me than this easy out fashion.

I think my feelings of inadequacy and uncertainty... of trying to find something to cling to... was born out of an announcement that came from my employer. A couple of weeks ago, I received word that my department is being transferred to another state. Some of my peers are moving with the department. There are many, like me, that can't and don't want to move. We are told by upper management that there will be opportunity for those who don't want to transfer. For things of this world, for me, seeing is believing.

Over the next year I'll be facing a room full of prospective supervisors in an interview that I didn't seek out. I think interviews are bad enough. I think its worse when you had no plans to find a new job. So much for job security...


I'm clinging to my faith in God, that He knows where He needs me to be.  I'm looking to my friends and family to be vines that God has placed in my path.... for instance, I was having a particularly lousy day shortly after the announcement released at the office and my cousin and I met for lunch. We talked about a lot and nothing in particular... but the key point here is that she made me laugh. Laughing was just what I needed that day...

So as I face this year of uncertainty, I'm clinging to the One who is always consistent, and I'm making sure I keep lunch dates with my friends and that I walk outside to inhale now and again....

12 comments:

  1. Hi Christy:

    I believe that Christianity is a ‘hands-on’ religion. Christ went out and did things.

    Remember the old saying:

    “God favors the bigger battalions”.

    Also,

    “You can pray to win the lottery but you still have to buy a ticket.”

    and

    “Prayer can prepare the mind to help you advance the plan God has for you.”

    Now is the time to take action to be prepared to land on your feet. (At least, this is how a male see things.)

    Vince

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  2. Christy, thanks for sharing that with us. I'm glad you have a good support system. And when things get you really down, please remember to look at all God has blessed you with. Easy to say, I know, harder to remember to do. But from this blog I already know you have a secure house, beautiful children, a husband you love, a great car, good writing friends, a loving family, and the opportunity for an even better job. As for the wardrobe blahs, a day out shopping is always fun! Hang in there, things always have a way of working themselves out for the best. And I love the idea of getting outside and enjoying the day. Have fun!

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  3. Christy, I think this may be just the opportunity you need, the not the way you expected. I know the challenges you've faced with your job and desire to have something less stressful. God's got it figured out, even if you don't. You just need too slide on over to the passenger seat and let Him take hold of the wheel.

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  4. Hi Vince!
    You are right. Christ didn't get anything accomplished by sitting and waiting for it to come to Him. I should be used to change, and I knew this change was coming, but when the announcement finally came it was just like - okay - anticipate the next change and pray I show up competitive. I'll land on my feet and I am praying it'll be in a less stressful environment than where I currently am working.

    And I appreciate your male perspective. I think I speak for all of us on the blog when I say we miss you when you're not around!

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  5. Thanks Eva & Mindy... I'm sure you both see that I get caught up in the whirlwind sometimes... need to stop and pause and realize my blessings. That keeps me grounded as a matter of fact and calm...and yes, I do need to slide over in the passenger seat. :)
    Thank you both for your kind words.

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  6. Christy,
    I think I have an inkling of how you feel. Although my job isn't being moved to another state, my hours were cut 50% and pay cut on top of that as of 1/1/11. It has been such an adjustment, but I'm trying to look at it as a blessing. This change is giving me time to do writing-related activities and to try and start my own editing business. Perhaps for us both - these changes are blessings in disguise!

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  7. I'm starting my second year of job insecurity. I've felt all along that God was in control and would take care of me. (here comes the but) But, I, that's a capital I!!, I thought it would be over with by now.

    It's certainly no fun, so I make sure I make my own. Sounds like you are doing the same. And at this time of the year, we really do need the fresh outdoors kind!
    May God bless your job search or bring the best one right to your door, Christy.

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  8. Oh, gosh, Christy, I bet it is hard not to worry. (You know, since I'm a worrier and all). :) But I'm with Mindy. I have a feeling this is going to be exactly what you need.

    Just be confident and be yourself at those interviews. You're always so friendly and genuine. They'll love you!

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  9. Christy, I'll definitely be praying for you. My biggest prayer will be that God's favor rest upon you. It's unbelievable what happens and what opportunities open when God's favor goes before us.

    On a more worldly note, I'd give you my job if I could, but I doubt you'd want it. LOL!!

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  10. Christy, I know how you feel. I was laid off in 2000, but it turned out to be a blessing. I ended up staying home with Celina and she needed me. She was preschool age.

    Budgets are looking very bad where I'm at as well. They're talking about cutting us by 40%-50% and there have been rumors of possible elimination.

    The advocacy part of my job has me writing letters to the governor, House of Reps, Senators, and taking groups of people to Raleigh to meet with our state legislators from Feb-May. I've been running a Social Media campaign--it's all so tiring. And to be honest, there's a small part of me that wonders if our efforts are in vain. The budget deficit is so huge, I don't know how they've fix things.

    I think the verse that says, the just live by faith, sums up things best. Hang in there and we can be praying for each other.

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  11. Edwina,
    I'm sorry for what you are going through with your job. I pray your writing and editing ventures will take off during this time!

    Debra,
    Thank you for your encouragement and I pray this time of insecurity will be coming to a close for you as well. I know we need to not worry or fear if we trust in the Lord, but it's hard... we want things to happen in Our time!

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  12. Thanks Missy... I tend to rattle on during interviews. I hope I can keep my mouth shut and answer succinctly.

    Thanks Dianna... No, I couldn't handle your job. You are awesome to do what you do!!

    Jenn, I'm sorry to hear about the things going on with your employer. I think these cuts are affecting every industry... but we as the employees are the ones to suffer. I hope your campaigning will help! And I like that, we can be praying for each other... sounds like all of us need the prayer and of course, we will benefit from it!

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