How many times have you looked back on your life and wished you could have a "do over." Just one more day God, even an hour to live the way I did in the past. Make my children small so I can tickle their belly's and tell them one more time I love them or read them their favorite book?
Or how about this one (it's one of my favorites) Please God let me be the size I was in high school or at least let me have my energy from back then.
Then there are the things you used to own, I'd love to be able to drive around in my little MGB. I loved that car but had to give it up when our second child was born.
So are we any different than Lot's wife? I used to think so. Surely if God told me to get out of town and not look back that's what I'd do. But would I? Would I have been strong enough?
True God hasn't asked us to forget those precious things He's given us--He didn't ask Lot's wife to forget them either. He said leave them.
Since my house went from five to two people I've been wanting to go back to the way it was, full of little boys and their friends, or teenage boys and friends. Someday's I'd even get so sad I couldn't bear it. I was living in the past, not in the now where God wants me.
|Living in the Past|
These past weeks I've been watching my grandson. I thought this would be the most amazing job in the world. It is...but it's not the same as "back then" and nor should it be. I've realized I have to let those times stay in the past this is my grandson, not one of my sons. God has given me new gifts that fit my life now.
Watching the baby has been an experience I wouldn't want to miss and I want to be involved as much as I can. Still, being a grandmother is my role not being his mom. God's telling me pretty clearly I'm meant to spend this season of my life writing and loving my family in a different way.
It will be a challenge to step back and not being the one in charge but it will be great because that's God's plan.
So I'm going to turn my head to the future and visit the past less often.
How about you? Are you living like Lot's wife, looking back and turning into a pillar of salt?
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